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Friday, July 04, 2008
fourth july two thousand and seven(: I had a mixed emotions day today. I was happy when school ended. rawrs. then go met up with wh and yz. at first i was ecstatic upon seeing them. however, there were some stupid disputes. its like both of us are in the wrong. *later wh say we all guai pi again* oh wells,i dunno him la. its like he gets angry with me rather then wh. then when i confront him abt it, he will not be happy with me. i'm like so sad and then like kinda pissed off la. so i called him. i was trying to get my message across and then close the case and back to normal. however, i may have gotton too carried away and he yelled at me and then slammed on me. *sobby. after that, i went to school with juliana. lucky there was her. *i love youu juli!! pidikum? then we practiced for the speech day thing with irwin. this is when the nervousness kicks in. finally the time came for us to emcee. my heart was beating so hard that i could hardly heat myself think. therefore, i tried to calm myself down by calling that dearest yz. i was prepared to leave everything as the past. but somehow or rather, he gave me the wrong signal or something. he slammed on me AGAIN! thats so sad la. but i managed to keep my feelings of melancholy and anxiety back by swirling around at the back of the hall and jumping and moving around. then the guest of honour came. haha. beating beating and beating hard. i could hardly hear myself thinking. when it was my turn, i was trembling, but after a few times, i got used to it and stopped it. (hey, i actually enjoyed myself, putting the sorrows at the back of my mind) after the whole thing came to an end, the key to the back of my mind opened itself. and the sorrows and sadness came back. so i tried to call him, but he made a fool of everything. sobs. i really don't know what to say about this guy. here i am trying to suppress all my nonsense mind set and he is like opening it even more. i tried to give in to him, but he would'nt budge like a door that refuses to open. maybe his darling sister zona and wei heng has the key to make him happy. *jiu kao ni le! now i really hope that he can get back to me. i really wish he can make his heart turn more forgiving. he always like to do this to me, its like he purposely do it. hmms. this is so sad la. like one day we were the closest however, the next day he hates me. i thought he could be there to suppress my anxiety and fear of the crowd, but he instead did not care. i wonder does he even care. if he does, he'll somehow get to me or contact me. where is it i ask you? where? *gaffaws. i really cant stand it. he's driving me nuts. just say a simple sorry and put the past where it belongs. is it that difficult?! i ask you is it that difficult?!?! oh well, i'll have to suppress all my anxiety and melancholy tmr again. hope my jiaxiangs can help me. love them loads. i love you. but where are you?
oh well. thank God for helping and guiding me today, i pray that you will help me get through this and you can soften his heart. i also pray for my jiaxiangs. and i pray that you will make my day better tmr and he will at least call me and say a sorry i love you my dear with his heart.
amen.
There she goes, there she goes again.
Hello Earthlings, my name is S.Hilary Ma :D
I invaded your planet on the twenty first of july :D
I love my creator, his son, and the holy spirit :D
I've graduated from Boon Lay Secondary School :D
I am Dynamic, Delirious, Delicious, Dangerous, Daring, Different :D
I love attacking humans with my music, the piano :D
Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength Nehe 8:10
The O levels are finally over, now what? Many complained that they are bored, but i compiled a list of random things to do so that i would be occupied. I decided to share it with you guys!
1.Reorganize my wardrobe
2.Clear the soft toys and reorganize sleeping area
3.Clear clutter from the study table and remove unwanted books
4.Reorganize my shelves
5.Do some gardening
6.Get flight tickets to anywhere 7.Run everyday
8.Swim once a week
9.Look for ways to get extra cash 10.Go ice skating
11.Go inline skating
12.Learn beginner's guitar
13.Finish learning Grade 8 scales
14.Finish playing the first Grade 8 song
15.Piano Duet with someone
16.Write a book
17.Write a poem
18.Bake cookies and cakes
19.Cook Teriyaki Chicken for Nova
20.Visit an orphanage
21.Learn how to cook from grandmother
22.Take part in a church event 23.Memorize sequence of the bible
24.Read SYM
25.Watch a movie 26.Call Sec sch mates out
27.Call Pri sch mates out
28.Call YM mates out
29.Shout really loud in a mall 30.Play Pool
31.Arcade! 32.Start on CW 33.Share the good news with at least 5 people
34.Praise and worship more often
35.Learn more praise and worship
36.Eat healthily
37.Laugh really loud somewhere
38.Enjoy nature
39.Smile at a toddler 40.Smile at an elderly person
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fourth july two thousand and seven(: I had a mixed emotions day today. I was happy when school ended. rawrs. then go met up with wh and yz. at first i was ecstatic upon seeing them. however, there were some stupid disputes. its like both of us are in the wrong. *later wh say we all guai pi again* oh wells,i dunno him la. its like he gets angry with me rather then wh. then when i confront him abt it, he will not be happy with me. i'm like so sad and then like kinda pissed off la. so i called him. i was trying to get my message across and then close the case and back to normal. however, i may have gotton too carried away and he yelled at me and then slammed on me. *sobby. after that, i went to school with juliana. lucky there was her. *i love youu juli!! pidikum? then we practiced for the speech day thing with irwin. this is when the nervousness kicks in. finally the time came for us to emcee. my heart was beating so hard that i could hardly heat myself think. therefore, i tried to calm myself down by calling that dearest yz. i was prepared to leave everything as the past. but somehow or rather, he gave me the wrong signal or something. he slammed on me AGAIN! thats so sad la. but i managed to keep my feelings of melancholy and anxiety back by swirling around at the back of the hall and jumping and moving around. then the guest of honour came. haha. beating beating and beating hard. i could hardly hear myself thinking. when it was my turn, i was trembling, but after a few times, i got used to it and stopped it. (hey, i actually enjoyed myself, putting the sorrows at the back of my mind) after the whole thing came to an end, the key to the back of my mind opened itself. and the sorrows and sadness came back. so i tried to call him, but he made a fool of everything. sobs. i really don't know what to say about this guy. here i am trying to suppress all my nonsense mind set and he is like opening it even more. i tried to give in to him, but he would'nt budge like a door that refuses to open. maybe his darling sister zona and wei heng has the key to make him happy. *jiu kao ni le! now i really hope that he can get back to me. i really wish he can make his heart turn more forgiving. he always like to do this to me, its like he purposely do it. hmms. this is so sad la. like one day we were the closest however, the next day he hates me. i thought he could be there to suppress my anxiety and fear of the crowd, but he instead did not care. i wonder does he even care. if he does, he'll somehow get to me or contact me. where is it i ask you? where? *gaffaws. i really cant stand it. he's driving me nuts. just say a simple sorry and put the past where it belongs. is it that difficult?! i ask you is it that difficult?!?! oh well, i'll have to suppress all my anxiety and melancholy tmr again. hope my jiaxiangs can help me. love them loads. i love you. but where are you?
oh well. thank God for helping and guiding me today, i pray that you will help me get through this and you can soften his heart. i also pray for my jiaxiangs. and i pray that you will make my day better tmr and he will at least call me and say a sorry i love you my dear with his heart.
